One more day...

My personal photographer thought we should document the baby one last time before it meets the big bright world outside the womb. I think we are ready here... well, Jadyn can't decide if she's ready/ excited or not.. all she knows is that she wants a haircut before the baby comes...that's this morning's news.

Go Tigers!

Jadyn's big first soccer game! It was only 125 degrees out in San Elijo as the Tigers beat the "Pixies" (ya, real tough name.. ha, I'm mean. Sorry, but their team had a girl crying the entire game)... She has come a long way from last year's Pee Wee team where J was the only girl on an all boy team. This is SERIOUS soccer. She hussles her little booty off (ALMOST had 2 goals) and everyone LOVES her one-of-a-kind "Rambo" style. Headbands are a part of her gear, no matter if it's practice or a game.. I think they should be instituted as part of the official uniform, right? Justin and I cheer like its the World Cup, we love it.


Jadyn's littlest fan... for the next 3 days!

Dream without sleeping

I am getting so excited I can't sleep. I know, I need to sleep. I'll never have a full night's sleep again... never sleep in on a school day OR a weekend, for that matter.. or at least it will be much more rare. But I am consumed with a constant barrage of thoughts and dreams and "what will it be like" thoughts about this new little baby. At night, it's all about "what will I do to calm the baby down?" " I hope I can feed the baby and it doesn't have colic" and of course "won't the baby be so cute in the little sling going to Jbird's soccer games" and "I can't wait to use the Bob and jog all around San Elijo.. maybe I'll join the stroller club.."

But my thoughts during the day are always in relationship to my thoughts about Jadyn. Even before being pregnant, I would look at the clock while she was at school and wonder what she was doing.. or when she's not with us, I wonder what is keeping her attention. Is she happy? Is she causing trouble? Is she laughing? Is she making us proud? Is she making up stories or is she being a good friend? Is she eating the healthy things in her lunchbox or did she go straight for the "froot by the foot" like I would have and throw away the healthy stuff to make me think she ate it?

I never have second guessed my love for Jadyn. I remember the day I met her, how she grabbed my hand and waddled her little diaper butt up the big hills at the San Diego Zoo...and changing her diaper for the first time (on our first "family" date) in the bathroom at Fillipes downtown. She has always been so good natured and we have always had a strong bond. I'm her "Bibif" and she's my "Jbird". I have, by default been her mom in this family, and I know she counts on me and knows I will be there for all of the things that moms are there for... but I also know the biological bond that she has with the woman who gave birth to her. I don't know how to explain it, because of course, she is too young to put it into words and I would never want her to even believe for one second that she would need to define any of her feelings... she has never expected anything but what was given from either one of us, the beauty of innocence, but also the unquestioning love for a mother.

I know there are things I will never understand, but I am so excited and anxious to experience the whole thing from the beginning. I can only anticipate the feelings being amplified knowing that this little being inside of me has depended on only me for the past 9+ months. How will I ever share him/her? I hope I am good at this, I pray that I can keep calm, I wish I would have read more books to the baby in the womb, or listened to more classical music instead of Keith Urban or whatever Jadyn is into in the car, I wish I would have done more squats... My head is spinning, so I can't sleep. already.

Shower California style

An ironic name for a party on the hottest day of the year, but Sandy and Julia really showed a crafty streak with the cutest party in the state thrown for Baby Heit over the weekend.

backyard blonds keeping cool

big sister and crew

<<-sis-in-laws

Jjo (sans Harte) made the trip... all the way from Charlotte :) so glad you were in town!!

adorable favors... the little topiary pots were handmade by Julia..sis with a serious gift for the florals!

Justin says I'm going to be like the people on Cribs with my 'quiver' of strollers.. "here's my blacked out rims jogger... for when I really gotta ride fast..." can't WAIT to use this!!

HSM2

Yes, we were a part of the most viewed cable movie of all time.. High School Musical part deux. Our festive friends, the Slaters, dressed up in character and hosted a soiree where we ate everything that was shown on the movie, had the same drinks and had decorations all over the house .. "What time is it??" Slaters go all the way.. Jennifer greeted us as Ms. Darbus, collecting our cell phones... Evan was Ryan with his hat and gayball outfit... Peytie had imitated Gabriella's outfit exactly from the bazillion commercials aired on Disney.. Zoe was Kelsey, the piano player/ "playmaker"... their friend Sierra was totally Sharpay... everyone got into the act... I am claiming I was the "pop and locker" (okaay, she's chunky!)but a good dancer, right?

As for a review..personally, I think there were more catchy tunes in part 1... but I think I'm a little older than the demographic?

Preggo brain

Is a real thing. Not that I'm particularly swift nor coordinated while UNpregnant.. but this week alone... I have thrown my phone in the trash can.. and locked my keys in the car upon arriving home... oh, ya, with the spares in the glove box.. since we're allegedly selling my car.. and poor AAA man who came to my rescue.. it's only 120 degrees out today, not to mention IN the garage. nice.

In other news.. baby is coming on the 29th!!
SO not ready!

YES.

I changed the ticker.
baby is coming. august 30.
ready or not...
newsflash:
I mean August 29th!! aaak!!!