One more day...

My personal photographer thought we should document the baby one last time before it meets the big bright world outside the womb. I think we are ready here... well, Jadyn can't decide if she's ready/ excited or not.. all she knows is that she wants a haircut before the baby comes...that's this morning's news.

Dream without sleeping

I am getting so excited I can't sleep. I know, I need to sleep. I'll never have a full night's sleep again... never sleep in on a school day OR a weekend, for that matter.. or at least it will be much more rare. But I am consumed with a constant barrage of thoughts and dreams and "what will it be like" thoughts about this new little baby. At night, it's all about "what will I do to calm the baby down?" " I hope I can feed the baby and it doesn't have colic" and of course "won't the baby be so cute in the little sling going to Jbird's soccer games" and "I can't wait to use the Bob and jog all around San Elijo.. maybe I'll join the stroller club.."

But my thoughts during the day are always in relationship to my thoughts about Jadyn. Even before being pregnant, I would look at the clock while she was at school and wonder what she was doing.. or when she's not with us, I wonder what is keeping her attention. Is she happy? Is she causing trouble? Is she laughing? Is she making us proud? Is she making up stories or is she being a good friend? Is she eating the healthy things in her lunchbox or did she go straight for the "froot by the foot" like I would have and throw away the healthy stuff to make me think she ate it?

I never have second guessed my love for Jadyn. I remember the day I met her, how she grabbed my hand and waddled her little diaper butt up the big hills at the San Diego Zoo...and changing her diaper for the first time (on our first "family" date) in the bathroom at Fillipes downtown. She has always been so good natured and we have always had a strong bond. I'm her "Bibif" and she's my "Jbird". I have, by default been her mom in this family, and I know she counts on me and knows I will be there for all of the things that moms are there for... but I also know the biological bond that she has with the woman who gave birth to her. I don't know how to explain it, because of course, she is too young to put it into words and I would never want her to even believe for one second that she would need to define any of her feelings... she has never expected anything but what was given from either one of us, the beauty of innocence, but also the unquestioning love for a mother.

I know there are things I will never understand, but I am so excited and anxious to experience the whole thing from the beginning. I can only anticipate the feelings being amplified knowing that this little being inside of me has depended on only me for the past 9+ months. How will I ever share him/her? I hope I am good at this, I pray that I can keep calm, I wish I would have read more books to the baby in the womb, or listened to more classical music instead of Keith Urban or whatever Jadyn is into in the car, I wish I would have done more squats... My head is spinning, so I can't sleep. already.

Shower California style

An ironic name for a party on the hottest day of the year, but Sandy and Julia really showed a crafty streak with the cutest party in the state thrown for Baby Heit over the weekend.

backyard blonds keeping cool

big sister and crew

<<-sis-in-laws

Jjo (sans Harte) made the trip... all the way from Charlotte :) so glad you were in town!!

adorable favors... the little topiary pots were handmade by Julia..sis with a serious gift for the florals!

Justin says I'm going to be like the people on Cribs with my 'quiver' of strollers.. "here's my blacked out rims jogger... for when I really gotta ride fast..." can't WAIT to use this!!

Preggo brain

Is a real thing. Not that I'm particularly swift nor coordinated while UNpregnant.. but this week alone... I have thrown my phone in the trash can.. and locked my keys in the car upon arriving home... oh, ya, with the spares in the glove box.. since we're allegedly selling my car.. and poor AAA man who came to my rescue.. it's only 120 degrees out today, not to mention IN the garage. nice.

In other news.. baby is coming on the 29th!!
SO not ready!

Sweet Shower

Once again, Stefanie outdoes Martha with all of the adorable touches she brought up on their road trip to Oregon... personalized stationery favors, "make your own onsie" embroidery "bar" and adorable alphabet decorations. Kate and mom did the infamous sugar cookies and it was so awesome to see the old Portland friends... the weekend overall really made me realize how much I miss you so much.



Kim with adorable baby Declan's first party outing
Aunt Terry and soon-to-be San Diegan, Sam

Tonya and Gretchen

The Shoshanas unite


Baby Heit's new onsie collection!

Date night

We can't remember that last time we went to the movies together. So, after a weekend of me questioning whether I'm turning INTO a baby (emotional freak outs ranging from crying at the little league commercial on TV to throwing a little-kid-style fit that I wasn't invited with Justin and his guy friends out on Friday night) or if I'm ready to HAVE a baby..which, BTW, I'm not. Can't it just stay in there? It is such an awesome feeling to know it's growing and comfy in there, doing somersaults, kicking, stretching, yawning... and my life is still relatively quiet...and still MINE.. for the most part. I have no option but to soak it in while it lasts, right? Don't get me wrong, I'm getting more and more excited about the future of our family of 4, and all of the adventures in store.. but I think it is just an emotional "changing of the guard" in my mindset. So, in honor of our changing circumstances, we took advantage of a night on our own to see Knocked Up. Cliche? Perhaps, but it was hilarious.

Las Gaviotas 07

Heit Crew

Happy Birthday, Jeremy! Kelly's delish strawberry cake

Julia's back..home. time to get rid of that San Fran white




Ju-ya and Greg



swim team...never have I so intently watched Justin swim as this 'challenge' to Julia's boyfriend to swim out to a buoy in the ocean. For all I knew, Justin just dog paddles on his board.. with his distinctive 'one foot up like he's going to kick' kind of thing. When we saw dolphins right out near them, I was worried there might be sharks or ?? ..they were fine. We cheered them in from the shore


Our favorite boys, Sage and Wyatt... before Wyatt farted on Sage's lap.. good thing he had a mask on... missing the middle "Nacho Libre" whose mask had a cape attatched.. it didn't come off little Chaz's head for the entire weekend




Heit boys What a trip this must be for Stu.. and for every parent as their children become adults, grow silly beards that come in all patchy on the sides, have children of their own, marry, divorce, do it again with a REAL WINNER, and all come together to celebrate birthdays, holidays... I say it in my mind all the time, and, well, isn't that why I started this blog.. to get it all out?? but I hope that my siblings can be the type of friends that Justin and Jeremy are. To Justin, Jeremy is his best friend; The shadow he doesn't leave behind, the first person he calls to surf in the mornings and the extra ticket he shares to a concert that he knows I would not be into.. Justin knows how to accept people for who they are and not expect them to morph into the companion that you want them to be. He has taught me to take people for what they are.. a good lesson, I'm sure all parents have to learn as their children become individuals, a good lesson for a wife to remember as she trys earnestly to curb her nagging.



if I'm going to be fat, at least I'll be tan... beach baby brewing

Belly bottoms, SOS

Help from any mom friends out there reading this... B needs some new bottoms.. the rubber-band-button-loop extention method is not really cutting it these days and I'm feeling like I want something a little slimmer to offset the tent style tops I'm loving.. that are by and LARGE dresses... so that I'm not one giant mass of clothing... I mean, don't get me wrong, I love cargo, drawstring, baggier pants, and I'm hoping that day comes soon when I feel like if I wear a slimmer tee shirt people will know I'm pregnant and haven't just been hanging at the college bar drinking too much Coors Light...until then, I'm all about the big shirt dress and slimmer pants.. but the slimmer pants aren't all about me these days.... so shout out if you've got a good tip, lead, favorite shop, or homemade solution.. and p.s. it's been hot here already..so maybe you just want to say it's hopeless.. go out and lay by the pool in the tankini?? any suggestions welcome!

In other random notes, I'm LOLing at Notes From the Underbelly!! I just turned it on and the husband is telling his wife she's cutting off the circulation to the baby by squeezing into her non-maternity jeans... NICE..notes on the lame husband comments later.. I might need a new blog for that. Or another sober spy weekend.. more to come

Baby Pictures

Top pic is the whole little babe, profile.. all curled up.. bottom is the close-up profile.. the nose is EXACTLY like Jadyn! CUTE already! What a relief to see little hands, fingers, toes (even IF the second toe is longer than the first... Heit!). So thrilling!

I just "can't live without.."?????

Sooo.. I'm trying to be less crazy about checking the baby websites with every little twinge, craving, or just to check on what is going on developmentally on day 141 (or whatever it is) but I really do like the Babycenter.com updates.. the "fruit of the week" (they compare the growing baby to a different legume or fruit size each week) keeps me smiling and it seems full of good information, but in a concise and not-scary way... until now.. I received an update this morning of "Readers' Choice: 7 Pregnancy Products You Can't Live Without."

The list includes morning sickness soothers, cocoa butter lotion, and other things that are probably useful and wise.. like a fetal doppler (I've been wanting to check in on the little thing all the time up until I started feeling it more frequently) ... but numero 7 takes the cake.... I allegedly can't LIVE with out:

7. Overalls!!!!!!!

OMG. My least favorite article of clothing. I personally believe there couldn't be one item of clothing LESS flattering, especially when as a preggo, we are already feeling a little strange about the new, more "full figured" body image... right?? ha. I just had to L.O.L. Evidently, I am alone in this conclusion... but I still think that overalls should not be produced over a size 2T.

here's what the BabyCenter consensus says:

"Overalls are the best invention ever made. I like the plus-size ones (as opposed to maternity overalls) the best because you don't have to pay so much for them. They're really a lifesaver when you have to pee a lot." — tweetie0913"I could not have survived without my bibbed overall jeans. They are so comfortable, especially when you don't want anything touching your stomach." — Beth"Overalls! I got two pairs at Target. Even though I'm only nine weeks pregnant, my jeans don't fit anymore. But the overalls are great — comfy and durable. I love them!" — Wendi"My maternity overalls. In my first pregnancy I had overall shorts. Now that I just began my second, I will use the jean overalls, but I must have them." — Tracy

***Wow***